#happyfatcat

xo!

2011-09-01T17:00:00.003+08:00

i can be dependent on my own :>

hi selamat hari raya aidilfitri okay heheheh ok i know its late but who cares its only the third day yayyyy i collected alot more than hundred bucks i should say heheheh ok life have been great,i luv life right now.hehehehehehhe ok anything can follow me at twitter k people i'm inactive here hehehe ok byez luv xo!

when you're gone

2011-08-15T17:13:00.002+08:00

do you see how much i need you now?

okaaaaaaaaaaaaay hi! heheheh maths paper just now was manageable thank god! but still i have no faith in maths lol lol okok if pass then can i congratulate myself for passing hahahah :P hmmm i kinda miss my used to be bestfriend when i'm in sec one, ya its a guy, ya just a bestfriend, not more. omgggggggggggggg its not killing me that i miss you, but its just that ya i miss spending times with you, all those msges, and all those chats we used to have, i can't forget it i swear heh okay i hope you're all fine now <:

okay so i'm addicted to when you're gone - avril lavigne hehehhe aku mcm lame aja kan aku tahu heheh ok so i just topup and dun know who to msg....just msg anp so yaaaaaa yg laen aku msg tk reply so nvm save pp8 hehe ok anything call me i got tons of free incoming heheh :P so i'm gonna study for my chemistry tmr but hell yeah i'm gonna sleep first have some rest.and i still can't fast omg haissss ok wtv let's tweeeeeet heheheh :P

i'm alright.

2011-08-12T19:26:00.003+08:00

i don't deserve to be in this state.

okay i know i mia hahahah ok sorry it wasn't me that wants to mia but laptop just seem to be jealous of the relationship i have with tumblr lol ok fake but ya my laptop broke down but now its all fine i guess so hahaha okok so i won't really update much la. i miss my pancing, manis, kak atyqa, goodfriend, anep, and ya many people la. omggggggggggg. i can dieeeeee la like this cheeyyyyy hehehhe. ok tmr got performance haisssss so lazy lehhh nk perform at ut point there, the hardcourt. comfirm panas aisey naseb tkya puasa esuk hehehehhe so another 4 more days of not puasa for me <: hehehehe okay i dun know what to say already its just that i miss facebook, tumblr and twitter alot heheh ok bye mwah

nobody, nobody.

2011-07-24T20:26:00.003+08:00

hey can someone please help me to tell him that i miss being friends with him? :/ ok thanks.

ok ya, i'm inactive nowadays. just text me if you need me. ya life just haven't been any better ya ok whatever i'm just faking haha :/ ya so now, i'm not anymore nazlisick. he's back from laos, omg just miss him so much man, ya he's close with me so what why hais :/

so right now, when i'm at my lowest, nobody is here right by my side. well, i don't really know who to turn to right now. nobody understands me at all, but thank god i have the best here with me, he's all i can relate to. he's everything. ya thanks alot for enduring me huh. now i realised, you don't know how much you mean to me. i've tried my best, but i guess my best wasn't good enought. i've failed, i'm such a loser. ok whatever you say, i don't really care, cause as i know, i'm not at fault for that. ya thanks, you've proved everything now. bye.

happy birthday me.

2011-07-18T21:26:00.003+08:00

HI HAPPY FIFTEEN GIRL.

okay so i officially turned fifteen today.thanks for all the wishes and presents, appreciate them loads okay.and many people is still owing me birthday presents mwahahha!okok so besides that,my anep being super cute today.bknnya nk bagi present dpn2,ni tidak,dia selit2 dkt beg saya pula,aisey nk step cute je bf i ni hahahah sho tiut la no doubts ok hehehe :P i luvvvv boyfriend more than words k please heheheh :P i swear his the best ever siaaaaaaaa *hughugkisskiss* HAHAHHA OKAY WHATEVER LA.i seriously love today, thanks to my girls, Wani & Elly for spending yur times with me after school, and Anep for today, and for everything. most importantly, to the people who have made today such a blast, such a memorable day. oh well, i'm quite disappointed that the particular someone didn't even care to wish me well its okay, i mean nothing to him right now haisss this is life.but hell yeah, its my birthday so ain't nothing is going to bring me down mwahaha. but i'm still disappointed, i mean, its just a wish, can just send a text right? haisssss ok nevermind bye!

weird seventeen

2011-07-17T23:08:00.003+08:00

birthdaygirl is in the house yo!

HAHAAH OKAY ACTUALLY I'M NOT THAT EXCITED FOR MY BIRTHDAY, SERIOUSLY. i never hoped for anything, cause i know it'll leads to disappointment. so i just hope tomorrow i'll have a good time with my dearest mates, mwah i love them all. hehhehe. so ya, another how many more mins an i turn fifteen, haissssss i wanna sleep la actually but i can't hmmm how? help me!!! and at midnight, please dun flood my hp ah hahahhaah cheyyy mcm phm only atika tsk! okok bye i wanna try and go to sleep right now okay heheheh :P happy advanced birthday to myself, ♥

such a busy lady

2011-07-14T16:55:00.002+08:00

this girl up there^ she's such a busy lady.

hiiiiiii. it've been such a long time since i last update heh. i've been such a busy girl. and i swear this week have been such a hectic week for me sighs... i have to complete my 'buku mini' for my malay due tomorrow, my papercut also, due tomorrow, but i'm done with it. and also, my art reports and everything haisssss. so many.i need to do it all today haissssss! HECTIC. REALLY, HECTIC. and i had my performance yesterday at yew tee cc. i swear it was a blast, we did well okay. well done girls<3

so i literally miss Aslam & Alfian & Nazli. it've been such a long time since i've hang out together with them, cause Aslam's sick and Alfian is busy with his N level DnT so yaaaa nevermind, i understand and i wish him all the best man! so yes, i really hope this Aslam will get well soon okay, he'd been sick for a week already. hope you will be feeling better, i'll pray for ya. <:

and yessssssssss, class tee, my number is 15 :( i want 14, but shafiq take already. then i thought of having the same number with shafiq, but then later comfirm got people yknow thought that there are something going on with us so whatever la i give in to tht boy. hehehhe. i good right i know, next year if got new class tee, i'm gonna get 14 heh <: ok i love my pancing and boyfriend ok please, and boboy kau di skola seriously, nowadays kau maken merepek la bruhh hahah boboy boboy boboy HAHAHAHAH SO FUNNY OK NEVERMIND LA BYEZ.

last friday night

2011-07-08T18:56:00.002+08:00

i don't look for love, love finds me.

hi yesterday was awesome get to interact with the australians la omg!!!!!so pretty and handsome ok please heheheh they so cute and friendly then got this one brunette ehhhh, hehehe hug me before she went up the bus awwww. then the handsome guy blew kisses at us walao i saw that sia meltssssssssssssssssssssssss ahhhhhhhh so cute ok please hehehehe. and also the performance mcm shit la i dance seriously, sbarang jeh aku ni. ya so this coming wednesday pun ada performance at yew tee cc walao tiring la please then need to go home by ourselves haisss apa naseb kita :( nevermind la apa2 okaaaaaaaaaay.

and i kind of miss my anep ah walao can die alr la omg chey i ni exaggerate bnyk ni kenapa la omg, merepek only heheheh :P ok skrg satu hotstuff kt skola kita wahhhhhhhhhhhhh da maken popular eh kau heheheh okla aku mintak maaf k kalau aku ada jahat ngn kau tskkk!!!!tu la, bobal pasal orgorg gemuk, org kurang sempurna, haisss apa nk jadi.pasal org bopeng kau tknk bobal pula eh heheheh ok aku kurang aja kenapa huhhhh atika ok wtv.

and birthday saya lagi 10 hari la wah sehyyyy da besar atika, baru nk jejak 15 HAHAHAHAHAHHA da kakak2 sehy aiseyyyyy merepeknya aku ok bye!

its empty.

2011-07-04T14:38:00.003+08:00

HI SADGIRL RIGHT NOW HOPING THAT I'LL SMILE LATER OK BYEZ

#sadgirl

2011-07-04T13:19:00.002+08:00

Another day without you with me, is like a blade that cuts right through me. :'(

can i like say i still miss Anep eventhough i just met him just now? :( hais. he seriously degil, he dowan to follow go flyer today, on ibu's birthday. my god, comfirm ibu disappointed, plus me also :( hais Anep, once in a lifetime opportunity sehy naek flyer together, with ibu some more. walao u, haissssssssss i sadgirl sia seriously.. been crying hard this few days, haissssssssssss. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. :'( i'm not strong sia, walao. missing you kills me, why? i just feel like crying every moment, why? hais. i just can't take it anymore. it really is killing me. if only you could follow today, i'll be the most happiest girl on earth, atleast we can spend quality time together, being at our most happiest mood and ya, no fights or anything, just enjoyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy together with ibu. i just wanted to make ibu happy today, as it is her birthday but then haissss... i'm so sad very sad. hais. i'm still missing you, hais. how i wish i could just run to you, and hug you, and cry my hearts out cause i just seriously want you to know how much you mean to me, and how much i miss you, yes, i miss you that much. #sadgirlforever :'(

i'm not strong anymore, help me. where are you now, when i needed you the most? ohya, you're with your friends, having such a fun time together, without me. ahhhh it kills me, deep down inside, so hurt. haissssssssssssssss :'(

you actually cared.

2011-07-01T21:33:00.003+08:00

it feels so good when you actually did cared for me, when i thought you did not. but too bad, its your loss now.

okay la i very happy today k i can't deny that. heheheehheheh seriously Kak Atyqa told me something and i wuz superbly happy & satisfied siol! like woah, you really did cared for me, you did realised, but then i'm sorry, its your loss my dear :P i ain't ever turning back at ya, ever again. but possible, we can still be friends, for sure i would love to okay please. we should really be friends and not remain for acquaintances hehehe. i really appreciate for whatever you've did for me, thanks alot for that heheheh okay regent won today's match ehehhehe baek skali dan kwnbaek saya, Shafiq Arham scored okay can, he's the next Lionel Messi la cheyyyyyyyy hahah he self-praise himself mwahahaha ok la byez.

"hi, i'm very proud of today's Regent's soccer match i should say, saw this one bestfriend of mine, Shafiq Arham Alfian played like Lionel Messi, well not really la HAHAHAHA OK FAKE. okla, i'm so very proud of you k Shafiq cause you scored! wooooop. comfirm happyboy ah kau skrg, hehhh. anyway, congrats Regent for winning the match! To Zul Fadhmi & Noor Nazli, happy going Laos on the fifth okay! tskkkkk! i'm so gonna miss Nazli's random shits and jokes, and him la of course. Pancing won't be complete without you okay Naz! :( please go back, and come back safe hehehehhe :P ♥"

whatever you like

2011-06-30T18:03:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, we have to let go of something that once meant the world to us, not because we want to, but because we have to.

school wuz okay enjoyed school so i need to do my homework zzzzzz and i just bake something heheheh nice yknow okok byez

been there, done that, season.

2011-06-30T06:00:00.003+08:00

You may sometimes wish you could go back and change it, but just remember, whatever happened made you stronger.

my oh my,i'm having school later <: and i woke up early cause i wanted to have my own breakfast ehhehehe so semangt right i know. so today is gonna be a short day la, school's ending at 1.50 heheh happygirl :D and then going back home straight, have a nap and do my hw <: and most importantly, ART -.- OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG ART ISH WASTE OF TIME CHEYYYY HAHAHAHHAHA ok and i heard mummy want to celebrate me Syika Fika birthday on the ninth july at segar there, yes, advanced la. why don't want do on the sixteen? ninth so fast like that okay la mummy discussed with ayah don't know what ayah want to say okay bye.

i wonders.

2011-06-28T18:15:00.002+08:00

i wonder if you still care for me like how you did for the past 22 months when we were together.

hmmmmmmmm, ok that pict so old okay, its in sec two so ok la merepek juga ha ha ha ha. ok school wuz awesome, i love school and ya, we made new nicknames for each and every member of pancing. so tiutzxc. heheheheh okok

so i kinda miss this person but i don't think he give a fuck mcm shit only right haishhhhh #sadgirlforever :( cheyyyy hehehe. but seriously la, i miss him okay, he said we will be bestfriends but then now, not even a single look on each other, eventhough our class is just side by side, haishhhhhhh. what to do, this is life kan. tskkkkkkkkk! okla, besides that, i also miss Anep :( all busy with school, soccer, hmmm then what about me man? okay la, hehehehe atleast he posted on my wall and contacted thru fb, but only for while cause i can't use lappy at night, doing hw, heheheheh goodgirl i know :P whatever. i missssssssssssssssssssssss the twooo okay byez!

HIIIII

2011-06-27T04:12:00.002+08:00

The best thing about you is you can make me smile even you're not there beside me.

i went to jalan besar stadium yesterday to support Singapore U15 & U16. yes, eventhough the u16 didn't managed to win, i'm still proud of them okay, atleast both Singapore squads won okay, :D very very very proud of the boys ok! and finally, Azhar scored, two goals okay! heheheeeeeee :P hmmmmm okla thats all i think...

ano now its currently 4.08AM and i need to get up by 5.30AM so no need sleep, just rest awhile for me la.. tsk! i reached home just now at 12.45AM, thanks Anep for sending me home, and i guess he's all asleep right now, obviously right. i've done all my homeworkds heheeh goodgirl i know :PPPPPP ehhehehe i seriously am not looking forward to school anymore, school just suck big time and i can't wait for it to end like seriously la omg, haishhhhhhhhhh i need to study hard and now since i've got my private tutor, i'll hope he'll guide me along the way, Anep<3. so yes, i hate school, and for some reasons i love school. i want recess, eat japanese food with Pancing heheheh misses them alot man! especially Kiki, didn't even get to meet him atleast once sia during the holidays tsk! hehehe OKOK BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE SEE YOU PEOPLE IN SCHOOL TODAY HEHEH AND SEE ME WITH PANDA EYES LA K OMG.

why!

2011-06-25T17:05:00.002+08:00

You may sometimes wish you could go back and change it, but just remember, whatever happened made you stronger.

okay, i wanna whine about school. omgggggggggggggggggggggg, why is school reopening?! I HATE SCHOOL SERIOUSLY. i just freakin' miss my friends, that's all. school, teachers, homeworks, projects, are just a waste of time. i'd rather spend my whole life on tumblr, or mayb with Anep, Pancing, MANIS, Amy, Kak Atyqa, Khalisah and many others, other than going to school, doing all those shitty stuff, whatthefuck ah seriously. i hate school. i hate school. i hate school. i just can't wait for poly, atleast, better than secondary school, i hope. secondary school, i don't like. fucked up dramas, hypocrites, bitches, jerks, ahhhhh i don't like. hahahahahah ok i'm being so unreasonable here. nevermind, fucked up school, i'm gonna die, tsk! ok bye i'm gonna be doing my hw today, at midnight.

they lived on, even when you're gone

2011-06-24T13:19:00.002+08:00

True friendship isn't being inseparable, it's being separated and nothing changes.

hahah finally wish came true. meeting Anep today at 2.30pm oi hahahah for study date, heheh uat hw la then tsk! ok la i hope Anep found his hw already ok please, hehehhe ok byez

i've decided, him.

2011-06-23T19:00:00.002+08:00

Stick with friends who saw you, when nobody else did, and who were true from the very start.

hi today's kite flying and kidz amaze at safra jurong was okok, pfst. so tiring okay, but then i had fun fighting over foam balls with haq and the other of my sistersssssss heheheh ok prangai budak kecik k kite hahahahah whatever la, we're never too old, right my dearest girls? huahuahua :P okay, and had some talks about relationships, wooooooop i love the topic. we really had such a cute talk with each other man, ok la, rapatkan sisterhood Atika Sari, Afika Seri dan Asyika Suri nyeahahaha :P they're the best actually, but sometimes just sooooo, bitch! HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHHA <: we talked about ya, my experiences, which is like, not much la, about my ex, about my current boyfriend and such fights like merepekkkkkkkk hahahahah they also la storymory morymorymorymory like there's no tomorrow blearghhhhh ok whatever thanks ayah for this trip hahahah!!!

hmmmmmmmm so ya, i miss Anep :( i wanna meet him tmr ah, let's do hw together ah baaay ewwww saya tak penah nk pki 'bhy' 'bie' 'bby' 'bay' to Anep sia, we both dunch like, hahahha same mindset eh kite dua, well what to do, meant to be, chey ok fake la, kalau jodoh takkan ke mana, insyaallah <: hehehehhe budak mentel la atika tsk! hahahahahah ok diam. sooooooooooo, i really wanna meet Muhd Hanif Bin Abdul Jalil and have some quality time with him before school reopens :D yay, my wish okay, before school starts, heheheh

The Click Five - Don't Let Me Go

2011-06-23T02:36:00.001+08:00

i want it that way

2011-06-23T01:55:00.004+08:00

Every single time that you held my hand, I never wanted to let go.

hi i watched U15 and U16 Lion City Cup just now, okay la. they've did well :D both games were tough la for them, seriously sia. hehehe but overall, good game <: and i went there with Anep Elly and some others. hmmm sadly, Anep didn't sent me home cause he went to eat with his friends :( but nevermind la, can go back with Ain also hehehe. okay and Shafiq's cuzz just now was so cuteeee, heheheh see the pict, he so tiutzxc right! mintk kene cubit please the pipi. okla whatever, hehehehe :P i miss Anep k, hahahhahhaha ok lame kan saya tahu sbb tadi baru jumpa but still!!!!! tsk! but nevermind, had fun with the others, Alfian Shafiq Aslam Elly Ain Anep heheheheh ok nice day! <:

seriously, i miss Anep hahah and yes, i think i won't be using the term boyfriend for Anep la, cause i think he's not just my boyfriend, he's my friend, bestfriend, close friend, boyfriend, partner, soulmate, everything. so i'll just relate him as Anep <: or ya, my most cutest sweetest loving vainboy, hehehehe he so cute, just like me, ok fake la byezzzzzzzz i love Anep :P

Rihanna - California King Bed

2011-06-21T19:25:00.001+08:00

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
We were always just that close
Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us

In this california king bed
Were 10000 miles apart
I'll be california wishing on the stars
For youre heart on me
My californa king

Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Side by side
You were sleeping next to me
Arm in arm
Dusk to dawn
With the curtains drawn
And a little last night on these sheets
So how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us

In this california king bed

Were 10000 miles apart
I'll be california wishing on the stars
For youre heart on me
My californa king

Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
(Sometimes feel)? wanna ask you if you love me
But I don't wanna feel so weak
Maybe ive been California dreaming

In this california king bed
Were 10000 miles apart
I'll be california wishing on the stars
For youre heart on me
My californa king
My California King

In this california king bed
Were 10000 miles apart
I'll be california wishing on the stars
For youre heart on me
My California king

my vain boy.

2011-06-20T21:35:00.000+08:00

your love's a permanent distraction, a perfect interaction, a feeling so extreme.

okay hi, i went out with my #vainboy just now. he was so vain okay seriously, kalahkan saya ni, yang perempuan. panas semacam ah, thats whyyyyyyy he's so vain. kept asking me why never bring umbrella today so hot la blablabla kept complaining. ish, mintk kene sepak onlyyyyyyy. hehehhe ok da sepak dia pun for being too cute, heh heh :P we just walked around at zhenghua park, then stop by to rest and catch up with things. then went back to bangkit and called Shaggy using public phone cause #vainboy's pp8 is low, and mine also. HAHAHAHAH FUNNY OKAY AND SO TIUTZXC uh call pki public phone, hahahahaha! so ya, rested awhile then at 5:30pm sent him off to bangkit lrt station cause he wanna meet Shaggy and Afiq at cck, to go watch Gombak's S-League match, its compulsary, hah. so ended the day well, mwaaaaaaaah. meeting this #vainboy on the 22nd again :)

hehehehhe and i've enjoyed my holidays, without doing my homework :P HAHAHAHAAHHA SATU PUN BLOM UAT, PRANGAI WELL DONE K ATIKA SARI HEHEHEHEH. ok so well done to Singapore's U16 players for equalising with the Flamengo for just now match :) goal by Muhaimin Suhaimi, hehehe okay whatever la. but i prefer Ammirul hahahaha handsomeboy tskkkkkkkkkkk ok whatever bye!

when my eyes met yours,

2011-06-18T13:48:00.003+08:00

When you left & walked away, what really hurt was how you made it look so easy, like I never meant anything to you.

met this two cutest bestfriends of mine yesterday. had really lots of fun with them. it've been such a long time since we had moments like this okay. so yes, we did catch up with things together. <: we bought durians at bugis and ate together at bp, under my void deck with salt water HAHAHAHAHA. and they bullied me to drink the saltwater plus fnn apple i think. tsk! so salty ok please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so jahat ah this two, mintk kene tembak eh please. heheh overall it was such a hell of cute day with 'em hehehehe. i seriously miss pancing alot. and so, many of our plans will be dragged to December holidays cause mayb that's the only time that they are free insyaallah <:

today meeting my Ain, Amy & Elly, Nazli and Taufiq too. we'll be watching Lion City Cup today to support Fami! <: yay okay good luck to the nfa, make singapore proud okay please! hehehhe :D

so yes you idiotic jerk, if you were to ever touched him, i swear my whole life i regret being with you okay, fuck you. just making a warning here okay bye!

i didn't plan to miss you.

2011-06-15T18:24:00.001+08:00

There are people who aren’t in my life anymore & I just wish I could tell them they meant something to me, even if I meant nothing to them.

ahhh true that, and i miss idil yah okay, as a friend, nothing much. hmmm so yes rot all day uh at home for the past few days but then i went out yesterday with Anep to search for his clothings. so i just accompanied him uh, and then walked around town, marina square there and then bus home. i was home at around 9+. so ya okay, had a very nice fun enjoyable day with Anep, heh.

one more thing, happy belated first huh to me and Anep, k and i really love June alot, i need to make up with some of the people sia seriously, missing them alot, hmmm like for example, strangers then friends then strangers and then friends back again, hmm... or mayb, strangers - friends - bestfriends - lifepartner - strangers - friends back again please. haishhh i still remember sia when idil said that mayb after we broke up, we'll be best friends. but then now, see what happened? not even contacting for like three months already. i always have this urge to text him but i'm scared that he wouldn't even care, so yes i lose hope and i've stopped trying. well, i really hope we can be friends. and yes, i wanna be friends back with whom i've ever had a conflict with. its already half of the year man, i wanna change <:

i miss idil, not much, but only as a friend (: no harm right missing anybody? hah so okay.

random.

2011-06-15T17:50:00.000+08:00

1. What if my ex says "Why did you let me go?"
- i did not, i wanted to sort things out, but you just gave me a solution and told me that you wanted a break, so..... haish.

2. What if my ex says "I still love you..."
- i'm sorry, i've moved on.

3. What if my ex says "When did we last talk?"
- hah, long time ago, hmmmm...

4. What if my ex says "Will you go out with me?"
- yes, and please invite other friends along too <:

5. What if my ex says "Do you still love me?"
- yes i do, i never stopped loving you, but then now, i love you, as my friend. i've never hated you. <:

6. What if my ex says "I cannot keep my promise to you"
- nevermind, you've broke it already :/

7. What if my ex says "My friends say we don't look good together"
- hmmm okay, whatever.

8. What if my ex says "You have changed!"
- did i? no, i think you have changed okay, you've changed SO MUCH til you don't even gave a fuck about me when we were together back then.

9. What if my ex says "Can we get back together?"
- i'm afraid not.

10. What if my ex says "Oh, I know what this is all about. You found someone else"
- hah. of course, its all over facebook my dear. but that's exactly not the reason why we broke up okay. remembered, i've gone through 3 months of pain without you, crying every night, tsk. but now, not anymore.

11. What if my ex says "Don't you realize? You are the one who hurt me!"
- no i don't. i gave in alot, you're the one who hurt me instead.

12. What if my ex says "How can you forget our memories?"
- sorry. i don't forget. i have a pile of our memories inside a book, and a box.

13. What if my ex says "I will always love you.."
- ok then. (:

14. What if my ex says "Would you die for our love?"
- not anymore.

15. What if my ex says "You jump, I jump...Remember?"
- ahahahha no la!

16. What if my ex says "Kiss me to break the curse if I sleep for a hundred years"
- hahahah why so fairytale huhhhh

17. What if my ex says "What's the difference between me and you?"
- I'm a girl and you're a boy.

18. What if my ex says "I saw you last night with your boyfriend?"
- wrong person.

19. What if my ex says "Without me, your life wouldn't be complete"
- true, as a friend, i guess i need you.

20. What if my ex says "Why are you doing this to me!"
- i wanted you to be happy. i'm happy as long as you're happy. and you wanted a break, and you're happy for it, so i'm happy for you too :)

dear god

2011-06-12T16:58:00.001+08:00

We talked about the old times, and it made me smile. Because you didn't forget.

hi ok hi, it've been three days since i'm at home all day, yes i've been staying up at home, not going out at all hahahah! waaaaaaaaaaah and also, thats equal to 3 days of not meeting Anep. hahaahha okay tkp, tumpang rindu ajek la kat Anep, heeeeeh <:

so rot at home and eat all day, and so i guess that explains my holidays. tomorrow hopefully i can meet ellis and get all prepared for the date hahahah i wanna make something, a card or mayb just something meaningful <: cute right i know hahaha okey its all random la but hmmmm hope plans goes smoothly ok can bye!

when i said love,

2011-06-10T00:40:00.000+08:00

Real men don't love the most beautiful girl in the world. They love the girl who can make their world the most beautiful.

heeeeeeeeeeeeey yknow what, i love this guy up hereeeeeeeeeeee weeeeeeeeee :P mwahmwah♥ the best guy man, seriouslyyyyyyyy he knows me the best uh i love him alot okay can! hehehehehe. although we had alot of minor fights, ala, gaduh2 sayang, we still you know, keep calm and soley soley, okey no, we keep calm and stayed wooooooooooooop heheheheh. i'm gonna die this time if i were to lose him sia, okay hahahhaah manis macam gula2 kan aku tahu :P every single day i tell you, he never fail to text me good morning, and ya, goodnight too. wah so cute eh he okay la little things he do but still!!!!!!! ok back to the story....

so went to henderson waves with him la please, kite mcm bnyk dates gitu okla upcoming date together is the fourteen!!!!!!!!!! our first monthsary!!!! okay aku excited gitu padehal baru satu bulan, ala whatever la sebulan pun sebulan la, tak mati pe, janji sayang hehehehhee! okok, so went henderson waves, mcm nk mati climb slope slope wah naseb ada sayang aku ni tarek tarek tolak tolak aku yang gemuk ni chey ok fake tk gemuk pun. hahahah so ya, eventhough it was exhausted, i enjoyed the whole journey to henderson wave HEHEHEHEHEHE. and stop to chill at henderson waves, i fell asleep skejap bruhhhh on his shoulder, wah aku mcm stengah mati siol -.- pfst. then Vivo, ameeeeeeeeeeek gmbr heheheh then off home at 10 then smpi rumah mcm biasa, love hntr bwh blk so ya what a day phew ok bye!

LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE FOURTEEN DATE! ♥♥

sista mwahmwah

2011-06-09T12:36:00.003+08:00

Girls will be girls. We laugh at the dumbest joke, go along with the craziest ideas, and still manage to have the best times.

i had fun yesterday going out with this prettylady here. mwahmwah love her alot okay can. i accompanied her to Artfriend then walk around, ate Wendy's for the first time with her yknow HEHEHEHEHEHEH! so yeah, had real fun with her inside the libraaaaaaaaaaaaary weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

afterwards i met Ain. hehehehhe catch up with things, and yes, storymory la ofcourse. hehehhehe. so yes, Botanic Gardens eh for Manis outing yay yay^^ k la i love my girls alot please! ok bye this post all about girls heheheheh!

if we ever meet again.

2011-06-04T15:50:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, no matter how badly it hurts, you'll love somebody without regret.

heeeeeeey i super miss my dearest friends already la. khalisah also, haha i've been waiting for your text. ohya, if you happen to see this, mayb we go watch seru on tuesday nk tk sayaaaaaaaang? cause i'm going school on tuesday to collect my ic, nyeahahaha! ok khalisah, anything call me ok sister, i can't text, pp8's lowwww but got free incoming hehehe ok call me soon okay love!

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ok today not going anywhere i guess. i text love pki hp ibu tapi he tk reply so hmmmmm, nevermind. will be waiting for his text. tomorrow la going sentosa hahaha ok paiseh la. today haq is sleeping over, gonna have a blast with that smallboy. ok then need to plan what to wear already ahhhh shitty la i don't know what to wear, dress or blouse or what ahhhhh bitch gonna ransack my wardrobe ok can bye!

the best part of me was always you

2011-06-04T00:48:00.001+08:00

You wake up and he's the first thing on your mind. Its nothing new, it happens all the time.

hi i'm listening to mj12 with shah right now, and ibu accompanying hehehe <: okay so today, i meant yesterday since its past midnight already, hehehe. so went jogging with love, early in the morning oi. he jog, i briskwalk. okla, i got jog but then i stopped, when i saw this dog infront of me. and the dog kept staring at me, and love was so bad, he left me all alone :( scarymaryyyyyyyyyyy sia. ok so met love then off for i don't know what sit at the tasek walkwalkwalk talktalktalk, and this love here finally cleared his doubts with me. haishhhh so okay and then homed back at 10.40am and sleeeeeeeeeep!

K SO MY PP8 IS LOW SO LOVEEEEEEEEEEE I'M SO GONNA MISS YOU BIG TIME MWAHMWAH! ♥ MEET YOU ON THE 8TH OKAAAAAAAAAAAY LOVE YOU ALOTTTTTTTTT hehehehehehehe

stronger than ever

2011-06-02T10:54:00.000+08:00

You've been my strongest emotion, my deepest thought, my sweetest dream, my love, my paradise.

so i just realised that yesterday was the first, i forgot to mention something. its just that, this First, its different. cause i'm not crying no more, but ya, ok whatever. i'm stronger than ever baybeeeeeeeeh thanks alot huh for making me such a strong girl <:

but due to some shitty feelings i have yesterday night, i cried. ahhhhhhhh, shitty k please, its like you have no faith in me. i feel so sad, upset, very upset. i really need a hug, i really need to let out. how can i ever be your sadness when you're my happiness? it just doesn't seem right. what's happening now, no faith in me or what. i've been wondering, what's the question you wanna ask me, that always made you feel sad. just please have faith in me, and ask. i'm gonna erase that sadness in you. and whaaaaaaaaaat, you told me was that, it wasn't the right time to ask. but heeeeeey, when will the right time be? gosh, please have faith in me. this is what i hate the most, when somebody whom you truly love, somehow somewhat don't have faith in you, ahhhhhhhh i admit, i'm such a loser at this. hmmmmmm, so enough, i've been honest with you yesterday night about my feelings, haishhhhhhhhhhhhhhh please la my dear, clear your doubts, so just ask hmmmmmmmm i'll be waiting......

cause i miss them.

2011-06-01T15:03:00.001+08:00

Female power is not Beauty.

omg heeeeeeeey can i like say i miss my dearest beloved humble awesome loving annoying but cute Pancing♥ members please :( must really meet them soon and catch things up together, seriously miss you people man, rinduuuuuuuuuuuuuu korg smpi bleh naek gila aku ni. haishhhh, meet korg one day ehhhhhh? sayang korg mwaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! ♥

k just now meet love for mini breakfast i bought my Mcflurrrrrrrrrrrry ah prangai budak gemuk nya aku, pagi2 makan icecream hahahah love also said i prangai budak gemuk sia hahah jahat punya mataer hahah okey fake la. today love very irritating ngan dia punya smilesmilesmile macam kambing biri2 kt saya pike apa cute sgt. hahahhah ok cute la but awkward smilesmile to me for what hahahah i keep laughing siaaaaaaaa hahahahaha around him i always laugh don't know whyyyyyyyyy. he keep smiling to me, i keep smacking and tickling him, siow > le fast way hahahhahahah okay today boyfriend so irritating ok i'm done now BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

and tomorrow meeting this adorable boypren of mine for moviedate bleargh ok i happygirl today cause bought alot of spongebob stuff :P muahahahaha! Thanks alot ibu

back to you

2011-06-01T11:01:00.001+08:00

nnt je la update. nnt bf smpi bwh blk habes aku kelam kabut nnt hahahha ok bye!

you're all that matters

2011-05-30T00:26:00.000+08:00

Love is never ugly.

heeeeeeeeeey i'm currently having supper with ibu hehehhehe prangai budak gemuk makan tengah malam kan i know hehehe. okey today nothing much la, eateateat homed all day watched Lagenda Budak Setan, tears all over brrrrr -.- hmmm, afterwhich chat with love at our wall and blablabla i don't know if i'm meeting him tomorrow so yeah, mayb meeting if not then i'm going gyyyyyyyym! and congrats love for gettin to Gombak <: so not proud of you, okey fake la. very proud of you already, hahah ok fake aja. whatever la, meet him on the second june later for moviedate hehehehhe ok more to go this june holidays date with love. i'm so excited and so looking forward to the plans! <;

okok byez!

cinta burungs.

2011-05-29T02:36:00.000+08:00

This guy came into my life at the least expected moment and totally stole my heart.

hahah i'm not asleep yet. hmm, just wanna thanks love for yesterday, since it've past midnight already. went out to old woodlands road with love jalan2 then back to lot one for my breakfast/lunch/dinner at macd <: and then some dessert, wooooooooop YOGURT OK PLEASE. heheheh and love so jahat ok can kata yogurt tk sdp la apa la, ish! k looking forward to see him every single day, hehehe!

SECOND JUNE PLEASE COME FASTER YO!

cuteboy

2011-05-28T15:48:00.002+08:00

Anep Adelante
u!
Pagi2 potong sayur
Bye i nak tidur! K lame.

Atika kamsari nombor satu
Dia selalu di dalam hatiku
Ku selalu menunggu mu
Utk kita menjadi satu
K merepek i tahu
Bye i sayang u!

cute kan ni satu boyfriend saya? dia post ni kt wall kita sblom dia tido. hahaha so cute sia seriously. how can i not melts, and how can i not keep falling in love deeper and deeper with him? ZOMG. i really hope it'll last this time, i have faith in syg, i have faith in us. mwahmwah♥

love.

2011-05-28T15:34:00.000+08:00

The sweetest thing on Earth, ever.

hahahah da lama tk upadate blog yo, heheheh ok so meeting that guy above at five and go to old woodlands road to buy something hehehe ok see him later seriously, tk sabar heheheh <:

this one cute boy have been so sweet to me everyday without fail, the best thing ever. check my facebook, he posted 'GOOD MORNING BEAUTIFUL! <3' on our wall, like awwwww. isn't that what every girl wants? her dream guy to wish her good morning every morning awwww. such a lucky girl kalau la love ada pp8 da bleh msggggg heheheh. but eventho he have no pp8, he still make the effort to call me or atleast msg me using his friend's hp heheh. mwahmwah i love my boyfriend alot okey please. and yes, we've planned of what to do this coming june holidays together <3 heheheh awww. ok i'm falling in love with him already la tkmo kacau ok byez.

hehehehe ok hi i love my pancing and khalisah and suzy and bbgs' alot! MWAHMWAH!

tkd masa bro

2011-05-23T00:31:00.000+08:00

when you realise they are all you need.

hi yez i'm not yet asleep pfst how to sleep huh if missing loveeeeeeeee? k nevermind, whole day never talk never meet haishhhh three days straight tak jumpa, mana tak rindu bro. haishhh what to do. hmmm, meeting him tomorrow after his bolaaaa and so gonna call him after school, gonna be a happy fatcat tmr hehehehhe hope love tak paksa i makan waffle chocolate dia lagi aiyoo keep wanting to suap me think what cute is it -.- its so irritating and cute hahahahha ok la i want go file in all my stuff for school and then sleep and wait for tmr and meet loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee <3

right moment

2011-05-22T19:49:00.002+08:00

i need some time off.

k i seriously need to forget everything. haishhhh, why must all this happen? k la, ni la lelaki kan, da dapat kwn baru yg lebih lawa, lebih hot, mana nak igt kita ni yg tk lawa kan. kwn lupa kwn. bagus k prangai amalkan slalu. haishhhh. i guess when i said i miss you, and you said i was lying, you relly prove to me that you don't know me, at all. or were you just pretending? hello, i'm seriously sick and tired of your fucked up attitude that i have to entertained over the net. seriously just fuck the hell out of it. what's up with you? and your ego? you only thought for yourself. fuck you okay please, you never did a second spare a thought for me. i guess this is for the best, forget me will ya. just fuck you ah. seriously, you prove to me that you've totally didn't appreciate the things i've did for you. why? i'm always there for you, thru your ups and downs. i never left you. k la, since you took me for granted, i guess i'll just go away from you and your life. i will not disturb you anymore ok. and please, stop feeling2 that my statuses on fb all are referring to you, cause it does not even referring to you la hellow. in this world i do not only have you as my bestfriend ok please. i have someone better, Aizat, Pancing♥, Khalisah♥♥ and whole loads of 'em. ok then, i hope you'll regret. goodbye.

dearest goodfriend,

2011-05-18T15:45:00.000+08:00

Your ego over me, its unreasonable.

its your loss, not mine. you lose out, not me. please, i don't wanna lose you. i tried making things better, i did want to tell you. but you seriously, only think of yourself. you don't even care about me. i'm sad that things really had to end this way, friend. you know i really appreciate you and that nothing, really, nothing that can tear us apart. i'll never let such things happen. but now, you are choosing your ego over me, what's up with that? like hello, i was there for you, remember that. i never did followed my own ego, i appreciate your presence in my life and everything. what you've done to me, its seriously unreasonable, my friend. i really hope you realised how much we were there for each other okay, just forgive me if i ever hurt you? well, you too ever did the same for me, but i never chose my ego over you, you see. cause i treasure you, you're important to me. but nevermind, i can see that i'm not that important to you all this long. so yes, sad huh. ok nevermind, just seriously, i love you okay good friend, i'll never forget ya <:

bestest

2011-05-17T23:24:00.000+08:00

The best part of the morning is knowing that someone is waiting for you to wake up.

okey heeeeeeeey and i think i'm lacking of pictures la seriously, heheheh da la tadi kluar pki lawa2 bleh uat tumblr pict tapi tak bawak camera la pula kawan2 aku ni kan, ish ish ish hehehehehe. so met up with dearest loves, to buy elly's heels at jp then off to town to buy shafiq & alfian's stuff <: kiki was with us too but elly went home halfway. hmmm, so yes, at night met up with love to see the song he composed for me, ok for me. hahahaha and it was like long time ago and handwriting u superb k sayang u bnyk2 haahahahha ok fake la tu bkn handwriting u pun kan i tahu hahahah okok so i need to sleeeeeep nao kalau tidak nnt love marah ahhhh whatever eh love, i'm meeting him again tmr, he want to send me off to ite cck hehehehhe ok sweet boy i have right here with me i know and ini post aku tahu irritating tapi tkp baca aja la ok bye

aaaaaaaaaaaaaand! goodfriend seriously uh, i dunch wanna lose you, you really mean alot to me. but seriously, you chose your ego over me, then what should i do? only you can control it, i can only advice you and yeah, try to cool you down. ahhh what happened to us? we need to seriously talk ah serious. i really hope you contact me back ok, and seriously, i didn't meant to make you jealous or anything, i wanted to tell you today, but you, so prangai-ish. haishhhhhhhhh i can't afford to lose a kind caring goodfriend like you la i appreciate everything that you did for me. remember, you're the best <:

the last for you

2011-05-16T20:16:00.002+08:00

Think of how differently it would be if you never met the one person who changed everything.

HEHEHEH ok hi i'm meeting my love anytime right now. k jumpa dia di bangkit sbb nk tgk lagu yg dia compose untuk saya, dan juga storymoryyyyyy :D hehehe okok then jumpa sab then teh tarikkkkkk with her and mirahhhh hehe okok bye!

hi.

2011-05-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

140511 @ 0808PM

hi i owned the best guy on earth ever please be jealous hahhaa chey ok fake. so yes, he came back at the right time. he brought me up when i was all down broke into pieces. yes, my heart broke, so badly after being hurt by second february. but thanks, to him, i know the true meaning of love. he brought me up, he stayed, he stand up for me. he's everything i ever wanted a guy to be. i couldn't ask for more. he's the best, and will always be. i'm madly in love back again with Muhd Hanif Bin Abdul Jalil for the second time, but this time, its deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeply in love okay and i can't deny that. he have became my friend, bestfriend, boyfriend, ex, friends, bestfriend, boyfriend back again and i'm never gonna change that back again. thanks alot for waiting patiently on me. yes, he waited for me for about 2 years okay no joke. i'm the most happiest girl alive on earth right now. thanks for bringing me up when you knew my heart was torn into pieces. i guess, i love you, more than words. thanks alot for everything, nobody can ever replaced you. and i'm sorry if i've ever hurt your feelings, now you know, you're the best for me. thanks for being trueeeeeeeeeeee. thanks to god for this. insyaallah, we'll last. even longer than we were before, 2 year 5 months 2 weeks. (260906 - 120310, was once a history for us hehehehe) <3

its night already, and you're asleep already, and you're going out tomorrow. do take care of yourself okay <: and meet me tomorrow tooooo hehehehe cannot wait ok can! k byeee i'm gonna sleep with a big smile on my face k ♥

Ungu - Dirimu Satu

2011-05-15T17:28:00.001+08:00

haha this one song i dedicate to love k. <: heheheh ok please love kata dia mahu nyanyi lagu ini ke saya tapi saya tidak mahu kerana takut saya terharu sgt smpi ternanges how sayang how?

ok hai

2011-05-14T00:46:00.002+08:00

i've got the best guy with me right here, right now.

heheh ok hi saya suka bila sayang saya jealous its just so cute yet irritating hmmm... but then isn't that just part of a relationship. ok la fake la, i'm not even in a relationship ok please. <: hmmmmmmmm, so jealousy kills you eh sayang. oh please don't. you know you mean more to me than him. you know i love you more than him. oh sayang pleaseeeeeeeee i won't leave you this time. insyaallah okay <: and you were so sweeeet today, and as always awwwwwww. hehehhe ok i'm on cloud nine chey ok fake la.

hi i love you, you love me ♥♥♥♥♥

Somewhere In Brooklyn - Bruno Mars

2011-05-12T20:34:00.000+08:00

She was covered in leather and gold
Twenty one years old
I lost her in the cold
Its unfair, shes out there

Somewhere, somewhere, somewhere in Brooklyn
Shes somewhere, somewhere, somewhere in Brooklyn

Little miss perfect sitting at the train stop
Red nike high tops listening to hip-hop
While we were waiting started conversating
Before I got her name along came a train

(uuuuuuuh) next stop Brooklyn
(uuuuuuuh) now Im lookin

She was covered in leather and gold
Twenty one years old
I lost her in the cold
Its unfair, shes out there
Somewhere, somewhere, somewhere in Brooklyn
Shes somewhere, somewhere, somewhere in Brooklyn

On the street kickin rocks circling the same block
Green farm flatbush checking every corner shop
Tappin peoples shoulders askin if they know her
Everydays the same back to the train

(uuuuuuuh) next stop Brooklyn
(uuuuuuuh) I'm still lookin

She was covered in leather and gold
21 years old
I lost her in the cold
Its unfair, shes out there
Somewhere, somewhere, somewhere in Brooklyn
Shes somewhere, somewhere, somewhere in Brooklyn

Oh-oh-oh-oh
I wonder if well ever meet again
Oh-oh-oh-oh
I wonder we well ever meet again
Yeah I wonder if well meet again
I hope we do somewhere in Brooklyn

#love

2011-05-11T21:32:00.000+08:00

I didn't give up because I didn't care, I gave up because you didn't.

hi ok i'm a happy girl already, exams done <: can do anything already heheh so looking forward to Cultural Night, but so sad leh, i performing two item :( da semangat2 plan apa nak pki, haiyoooo hehehe ok nevermind la i hope i'll enjoy that day eh hehehe :D

okeeeeey life have been awesome, nyeahahaha! #love the best k i sayang u alot k byezxc

egoistic

2011-05-09T13:26:00.001+08:00

meeting ~~merajok~~ boy right now tskkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk haishhhh ok bye

hi pancing

2011-05-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

hi ok hi i love my pancing alot ok can <: i'm gonna do my art today til its done, i meant, til the second page done and yessssss, i hope tomorrow dearest love gonna help me eh eh ok sayaaaang. hehe ok tomorrow meeting my love to studyyyyyyyyyyy ok not my love la, my bestfriend onlyyyyy. i'm helping him with chemistry, he's helping me with art, if i can't finish it on time uhhh heheheh so i really hope by today, my second page is atleast done <: ok can't wait for tomorrow ok i better do my art now kalau tidak nnt sayang mrh uh oh heheheh ok bye!

Strangers, again

2011-05-05T18:45:00.002+08:00

"Within our relationship, we need to understand that it’s not all about fun and games. Sometimes we will go through tough times. Times that will deliberately push us to the limit of our breaking point. It’s not that we don’t want it to happen, it just does. All we can ever do is fight for what we have. Don’t let is slip away this easy because you never know that what you have right now may be the best you’ll ever see. Show them how much worth they have to you, show them you’re not ready to let go, show them you’re not going to let go.

Though you may be going through this downhill stage in your relationship, always remember to fight. It’s the effort that counts. Remind them why you love them, remember the times where you were at your happiest. Bring back those memories to where you made them last. The butterflies, the smiles, the love. All you can ever do is prove to them how much you love them. Don’t let go so easily, bring back that joy into your relationship. I know how much you really do love to see them smile. Don’t you miss the way they smiled at you? If so, please don’t let go. This relationship of yours is worth too much to throw away. Make it last. And always remember that you’ll do anything just for a shot of their love."

quoted from Strangers, again.

STUDY MODE.

2011-05-04T22:32:00.000+08:00

OK EXAM MODE NOW BYE I'LL BE BACK AFTER EXAMS K BYE

WESTCOAST!

2011-05-02T16:01:00.000+08:00

Please don't be like the others. Prove to me you're different. Show me that you're worth fighting for.

k haaaaaaaaai i'm going westcoast now to eaaaaaaaaat! heheheh okey prangai budak gemukzxc tadi da mkn icecream, then cake, then airbatu, wahhhhhhhhhduh! makan berat ah saya nari. blaja taknak -.- hahahahhaha food ah my first priorityyyyyyyyyyyy hehehe okey i'm wearing idil's jersey ahahhaha much missesssssssssssss huh okay, love, me.

okay wait! i think right, i think la, i think, i'm falling in love, with the same guy back again haha when the past came back, he brought me up back again. i felt loveeeeeeeeee okay fake la love love love merepek nak mampus aku nak g makan pun cantekzzz ah please okay bye

breakeven.

2011-05-01T21:17:00.000+08:00

i'm smiling, but i'm close to tears.

k hi first may so bad tak awesome saya tak suka ah merepekz siak seriously. pfst -.- every first why must it be bad eh atika? its the start of a new month la for goodness sake. haishhhhhh, mayb cause of my past history la kept haunting me. eh please la, i want to move on. at one moment, i thought i've moved on, but then i was wrong. actual fact is that, i've never moved on, til today. i kept holding on to the past. when can i move on? oh my god, please, i want to move on. why you mean so much? why must everything be this way? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh so suuuuuuuuucky la ok nevermind i sadgirl nak nanges puas2 malam ni ah seriously bye

i'm still alive but i'm barely breathing

2011-05-01T12:50:00.001+08:00

If you wanna leave me,I'll silently let you go for there is no point in holding on to whatever that is already not mine.

ok hi hi handphone saya seriously da mampus mcm sial k please. pfst. nk beli handphone sony ericsson slide atau flip phone, lagi senang, tkya nk touch2 ni sume, leceh. heheh okok then today going anak sdara cukur rambut at cck there.

yesterday had fun flying paper aeroplane with those people, Alfian Shafiq Aslam & Kiki. <: the best thing ever, having fun with all of them, the best damn thing. heheh studied together at jurong library there and walk around, play around at playground and i don't know what else we did ahahah ok and two boys were as sweet as sugar to me yesterday goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i melts ah k fake la bye

why do i still wait?

2011-04-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

I said I love you, you said it too. The only difference, is I didn't lie to you.

hi ok had English paper just now and it was manageable <: after paper, ate and walked around lot one with normal peopleeeeeeeees, Alfian, Shafiq, Elly, Aslam, Saiful. ok they're the best, ♥ i met up with ibu, collected my specs and i bought spongebob squarepants toothpaste and toothbrush! cute kan i know ehehehhe!

oh not to forget, someone confessed to me yesterday, why so cute huh you? you really love to make me speechless. hehehe okay i tak tahu why i like so cheeky but okay whatever. i don't need love, only bestfriends love la okey :>

hi bestest awesomest.

2011-04-28T20:32:00.000+08:00

Raudha, Ashiqin, Yanny;
hehehe ok hi we're getting closer and closer as days went by. and i think i love them, wait, its comfirm k, i love them very much. we're all close together, thanks to malaydance and everything. its so cute being with them, they're understanding and can be a very goooood listening ears k please. with them, i feel like a princess, cause we're all princesses, beautiful people i own. hehehehhe ok i hope you'll pass your N's and will be taking O's eh! <:

Pancing;
eversince 17 March we've been together. they've been by my side every single day. i guess, they're my everyday laughing pills. never a day did i not laugh when i'm with them. they really are the best awesomest bunch of clans. loving, caring, hilarious, hyper, random, awesomeeee people i have in my life. i really wanna thank Allah for giving them to me. they accepted me, and yes, they're the best thing ever.

Nur Atiqa Binte Sulaiman;
my another bestest big yet small sister, whom understands me best. she know me the longest, since 2008 til today. i really hope we'll last and yes sister, you know i did countless of post for ya, seriously. and yes, i really loved you, more than anything <: hehe thanks for everything, you're the best!

Nur Khalisah Binte Abdul Rahman;
hi she's my bestest sister ever. i knew her eversince she was in sec one, the very first day of school in 2010 <: i swear she's the best. hehehe ok i love crapping and doing like almost everything with her. she's really, everything i need. i love sharing problems with this little love of mine, she'll always advice me and everything i guess i love her too much already.

Siti Nor Ellis Binte Abdullah Sani;
I find myself being too concern about you, than myself. well its okay. she's the only one that i can turn to now. she've been the one, eversince the start i knew her. she've accepted me for who i am despite all my flaws. most importantly, she's true, and she do not leave me, no matter how hard the situation is. we've gone through everything together. through thicks and thins, hard times or good times, we're still together. we sort things out, and stayed. never did a second we thought of leaving. we managed to stay this strong til today, and yes, i'm proud of her, i'm proud of myself. let's keep this friendship til eternity, we'll be together forever, insyaallah. and with that being said, i'm prud to call her my best girlfriend. i love her so much, not even words can explain. muahmuah, hugs and kisses <3

okok so that's all okaaaaay <: oh yes, i wanna write for Hafiz, Manis, and alot more too, but then this is the only one that i think i can really depend on in Regent Secondary School, they've been there for me, forever & always♥

baby please don't go

2011-04-27T21:22:00.001+08:00

When you said forever, you meant a few months. When I said forever, I meant every day until I die.

hi, why must everything happens? k i hate this alot. well anyway, yesterday was such a nice day, bubbles blowing, blowing problems away, together with Aslam & Shafiq. yes, we three have problems, so we had fun yesterday, blowing bubbles, making ourselves ya know, problem-free for the moment. <: so uhm, nothing much actually.

today i was very binget and upset k please with somebody :( why you love to ruin my friendship eh, and also relationship :'( i sadgirl already sia tskkk dia kata aku prioritise dia dari dia. ada ke patut? padehal sume tak btol, beh dia maki aku fuck la. wah, tak bersalah sehy ckp gitu, fitnah sehy. k awak fitnah, awak berdosa, bkn saya. biar allah yang membalas semuanya. but ok la, saya tak percaya dia ok saya percaya awak so saya rasa sememangnya kita harus jumpa dan luahkan semuanya okey <: tapi saya sungguh sad awak kata begitu kerana saya sayang awak banyakbanyak k ♥

oh and Anep contacted me back after so long, Hafiz, my gooooood friend k please <: i love my friends alot uh k can <: hmmmmm, i think i miss you very much la exbf. what should i do eh? k i know, continue missing you then. pfst shitty feelings i have for you, why oh why. why this feeeeeeeelings stayed? haishhhh i'm so tired of false hopes, oh ya my heart's slowly breaking. thanks bye.

not as pretty.

2011-04-25T20:21:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you need to walk alone, just to show that you can.

heheh hai yesterday was awezome. tutti frutti k like finally! it tasted like heaven~ wooooooooooop. hehehehehhe

today shitty la no mood sehy, was sick k, til now :( sedih mcm bunga saya. tapi skrg saya happy heheheh anep so cutez. wooopwooop ok kawan baek saya aja, tidak lebih, tidak kurang heheheh! :P

always you

2011-04-24T01:51:00.001+08:00

i can't hide my feelings especially when the whole world can see

hi ok hi i'm so bored today going wildwildwet and escape theme park. meeting yanny, ashiqin, elly early in the morning tomorrrrrrrrrrow! HEHEEHHEHEHE fun peeeee :D heheheh ok cannot wait la please. oh yes, today someone really made me jealous with tutti frutti and glacious >:( jahat k pleaseeeeeeeeee! hehehehe! k byeeeeeeeeee

introducing me.

2011-04-23T23:40:00.000+08:00

hehehhehehe ok say what hafiz to this song? hehehe okok saya pon tak paham la hahaha

Strangers, again

2011-04-23T21:42:00.001+08:00

hehhehe ok hi, watch this video please. this is so trueee, and saaaaaaaaad :( can cry please. tskkkkkkkkk! watch k! interesting la, this one about relationship, hehehehheh <:

only when you're lonely

2011-04-22T12:45:00.002+08:00

It's funny how the person I thought I didn't want Is the person I needed all along.

hai i know kan, love is all we need, hahaha cheeeeeeeey :P okok yesterday cross country was fuuuuuuuuuuun, i meant, after that. hehehhehe had hell loads of fun with deares mates, Pancing and also Nailah, Shahidah, Shaggy oh and Fami too <: hehehehhe okok we watched Rio together hehehheehe so fuuuuuun k Rio its about love birds, so cute sehy i jealous already :<

ok haaaaaaaaaaai i saw R yesterday i happygirl already, hehehehehhe macam fun gitu kan, heheheh ok whatever i love my cutest adorable exboyf k bai <:

dreaming again atika

2011-04-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

I need you here. Right now. I need you to tell me that everything will be alright.

hi ok hi, internet kenapa tiba2 shitty ni, alamaaaaaaaak. school have been great, with pancing la of course and some parts of you that made me smileeeeee mcm kambeng biri biri i senyum lebar bila ternampak you. you hansem sangat k, k best. i sayang you alot tapi haishhhhhh kkk tkp la bye i nak uat homework then tido k bye fuuuuuuuuuh happy advanced to kak wannah btw! :D

one-sided

2011-04-17T17:55:00.000+08:00

"You're mine forever". The most selfish line but the sweetest words we want to hear from the one we love.

i need to collect my specs now but i so lazy how? ibu help me and yes, i took alot of pictures with Canon. hehehhe! okok i tak tahu nak cakap apa. i cume suka smalam, naek flyer dan msging mataer saya, chey fake la. saya tidak ada mataer, single mingle :P HAHAHAH OKOK AKU MEREPEK AH BYE

i'm gonna be by your side

2011-04-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

When u feel like no one cares or if u're feeling lonely, remember: theres someone in this world that thinks about u before they go to sleep.

hi i very happy today, malaydance got gold k, got gold. omg omg omg like seriously la please, i cried tears of joy when cikgu announced the result k, serious shit, we all cried together, ahhhhhh tears of joyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. <: congrats k girls, really love all of you, :>

hahha okok hi esuk saya pegi singapore flyer dgn keluarga tiri, urgh k have funn la and saya making specs and yes, i don't know what to wear, ahhh how k la i sayang i punya idil hahahahah merepek k bkn aku punya la alamak bye

SYF TODAY

2011-04-12T02:52:00.004+08:00

I wanna have a guy would love me forever no matter the circumstance.

HI PEOPLE TODAY SYF YES I'M AWAKE NOT ASLEEP CAUSE I HAD MY SLEEP ALREADY AND I WOKE UP AT MIDNIGHT JUST NOW, HEHEHE :P SO YESSSSSSSSSSS, WISH ME LUCK FOR SYF HEHEHEH NERVOUS GILA NAK MAMPOS. I'VE FELT THIS FEELING BACK WHEN I WAS IN PRIMARY SIX, HEHEHEH OKOK NNT I WANT MANDI K LUCKS TO REGENT'S MALAYDANCE!

HEHEHEHHEHEHEH OK HI I LOVE YOU K BAI AND TODAY YOU SO HOT I MELTSZXC HEHEHEHEHEH K I VERY CHEEKY KAN I TAHU WHATEVER K OH HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASLAM :P EHEHHEHEH OKOK IRRITATING KAN I KNOW BYE

money can't buy us happiness

2011-04-10T21:44:00.004+08:00

It's quite ironic that in life, the person that brings out the best in you & the one that makes you feel stronger is actually your weakness.

OK HAI AKU NGAH BINGET NI KAU BITCH SUME LAKI KAU NAK KENAPA. SMPI DIA DIA SKALI KAU NAK JUGA?!

hmpft marah sehy saya. kau kenapa sehy smpi nk menggatal ngn dia juga? eeeek :( benci saya. meluat tau, hmpft :( nnt dia pilih kau over aku camne? chey fake jek. hah whatever eh, goodluck uh. tapi aku confident, apa yang kau nk terjadi tu, tkkan terjadi k :P

HEEHEHEHHE ROT AT HOME ALL DAY CHATTING CRAPPING WITH PANCING K BYE

losing weight.

2011-04-09T22:14:00.003+08:00

It's so frustrating to try to explain. I wish you could just know exactly how I feel about you.

k hi i'm back from playing badminton with the usuals, Alfian, Kiki & Shafiq. it was really amazing uh. fun like shit. especially the kedai part, hahahha okok diam k please. Shafiq made me laughed alot today sia, hahahhahahahaha and i made their day by falling down -.- HAHAHAAHA BUT SERIOUSLY, ITS SO FUNNNNNNNNY. HEHEHHEHEHE AWESOME, ♥

so, i'm like still waiting hopelessly for ya? urgh, what a life atika. go fetch yourself a life okay. stop waiting, stop hoping, stop dreaming. please wake up. pfst i'm such a fool, waiting for you, and what's worse is that, i know you won't come back. but i think i've found the best, *winks*

the sixth

2011-04-06T20:55:00.004+08:00

i have to let go, even if it breaks my heart. i'll be okay.

hi i wasn't born to be yelled at, like seriously. you suck big time k boy.

seriously uh kau boy, go suck your own dick eh, kalau bleh smpi uh -.- urgh merepek sia kau, seriously. :/ k so i have nothing to say. just that, can't wait for syf to end, all those cramps and everything -.- tkle tahan k. tmr 2.4km run, i wanna die die died -'- k now i no mood i miss my exboyfriend k bye

its the third april.

2011-04-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

I had millions of crushes, I wasted my mind on them for a minute or two. But you, you were the only one I wasted hours, days, years on.

hi today such a boring long day i got my money, tapi i da spend, haha k da topup, apa2 msg k please but then, call ah better k thanks bye

Jessie J - Price Tag

2011-04-03T17:30:00.001+08:00

JESSIE J - PRICE TAG FT B.o.B LYRICS
Seems like everybody's got a price,
I wonder how they sleep at night.
When the tale comes first,
And the truth comes second,
Just stop, for a minute and
Smile

Why is everybody so serious
Acting so damn mysterious
You got your shades on your eyes
And your heels so high
That you can't even have a good time.

[Pre-chorus]
Everybody look to their left (yeah)
Everybody look to their right (ha)
Can you feel that (yeah)
Well pay them with love tonight...

[Chorus]

It's not about the money, money, money
We don't need your money, money, money
We just wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag

Ain't about the (ha) Cha-Ching Cha-Ching.
Aint about the (yeah) Ba-Bling Ba-Bling
Wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag.

[Jessie J - Verse 2]
We need to take it back in time,
When music made us all UNITE!
And it wasn't low blows and video Hoes,
Am I the only one gettin'... tired?

Why is everybody so obsessed?
Money can't buy us happiness
Can we all slow down and enjoy right now

Guarantee we'll be feelin
All right.

[Pre-chorus]
Everybody look to their left (yeah)
Everybody look to their right (ha)
Can you feel that (yeah)
Well pay them with love tonight...

[Chorus]

[B.o.B]
Yeah yeah
well, keep the price tag
and take the cash back
just give me six streams and a half stack
and you can keep the cars
leave me the garage
and all I..
yes all I need are keys and guitars
and guess what, in 30 seconds I'm leaving to Mars
yes we leaving across these undefeatable odds
its like this man, you can't put a price on the life
we do this for the love so we fight and sacrifice everynight
so we aint gon stumble and fall never
waiting to see, a sign of defeat uh uh
so we gon keep everyone moving their feet
so bring back the beat and everybody sing
it's not about...

[Chorus x2]

Yeah yeah
oo-oooh
forget about the price tag

Maddi Jane - Jar Of Hearts

2011-04-02T23:24:00.001+08:00

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love
I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/jar-of-hearts-lyrics-christina-perri.html ]

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
And who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

hi second month

2011-04-02T10:45:00.000+08:00

hi second month single lady = Atika Sari Binte Kamsari

hi today marks my two months of being single, yay yay :> but still not moving on eh, shitty pe atika. kkkkkk malas nk tules panjang2, mcm merepek ah sadsad -.- hah padehal ngah sad ni tau, tskkkkkkkkkk kkk enough k

today having school, mcm shit eh. having malaydance and then going to ucc :> hmmmmm, i seriously need to eat alot today, urgh. kkkkkkk i'm bored ah, oh yes happy second month of being sigle to myself.

hi April

2011-04-01T23:49:00.003+08:00

Strong people admit their mistakes, laugh at them and learn from them.

hi first april, you suck.

we could have been two years now, its just another two more months to go, and you break it. why must you do that? it hurts me so much you know. knowing that we can't be back together again, ahhhhhhhh that feeling, you know what i mean. i really can't bare la to think back about first april. why oh why? first april 2009, was the very first time i went to school with you, the first time k, the first time. and that's the day when i've got you. so happy like a cat. i didn't knew that all this would have happened, cause i seriously don't expect anything like this to happen. i've cried today in school twice, why oh why can't i let go and move on easily just like you did? cause my feelings for you were true, tsk. one-sided much? neeeeeh, i don't think so. k whatever i wait bye

k hi hi enough of all that crappy things. well, thanks to people who have made my day today, thanks alot for atleast making me laugh and smile. :> i seriously love you people so much. and i can't believe it, the people whom i expect to like somehow care for me, did not even bother about me. oh, what a life. hmmmm, anyway thanks la Aslam, Kiki, Elly, Shafiq, Rean, Wanie, Wani, Ziie, Shura, Naz, Azriful, Alfian. that's all eh i think? k la terime kaseh bnykbnyk kaseh ye korg, :> sayang korg to the tahap maxima. ♥♥♥♥♥♥

dope

2011-03-31T23:11:00.000+08:00

I can't promise you a perfect relationship without arguments and differences. However, I can promise you that as long as you're trying, I'm staying.

ok hellow, Aprilfool's Day is tomorrow i nk nanges please tolong. i tak kuat menghadapi semua ini. i perlukan pelukan :< aku juga amat memerlukan bimbingan teman2 :( aku is gonna be so sad tomorrrrrrrrrow :'( kalau kite tidak memutuskan perhubungan itu, kite sudah lama bersama, dua tahun, tskkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! bagaimana harusku mengharungi hidupku tanpa kehadiran dirimu?

i wished it came back, all the memories. i hope i'll not cry along the way to school, i still remembered, 1 April 2009, the first time we went to school together. too bad, our relationship only lasted for 1 year 10 months 2 days. i'm sad that it ended, seriously. cause i've never loved anyone this deep. ever wonder, how sad can i be? tears keep flowing every night. so sad so sad so sad. i can't believe that i've cried almost two months straight now. wow, why you mean so much to me? ahhhhhhhh, sad life, you left me. i wasn't actually asking for it, i was hoping that you would make it better, but you didn't. that really made me sad, real sad. wrong move k, wrong move. naaaaaaah, let's be sad tomorrow, haish. sighs.

hmmmmmm, i'm not looking forward for tomorrow, seriously, fuck. k bye hatiku menangis kesedihan.

i'm forever keeping my angel

2011-03-29T22:49:00.000+08:00

When we’re together or when we’re apart, you’re first in my thoughts and first in my heart.

woop woop heeeeeeey! :> baaaaaaby i'm awezome, thanks hehehehe k fake aje la. eh ya how do i end up in the same old place? tsk hahahah k sedih seminit jap, chey fake. hmmmmmm, lagi tiga hari, zomg. i want cry k please. why so fast? why can't i skip first april? i wished i could skip every first, especially first april. sighs. i also wanna skip every sencond february, fuck k fuck :( sadgirl already ahhhhhh

hmmmmmmm, school was awesome :> heheheheheh with Pancing♥, Shah, Shafiq, Ellis, Alfian, Nazli, Fiqkry :D hehehehehe they're my happinessssssss, love love love them k please! hmmm, what's more ehhhhh? k i think so far they have been awesome la, we've been happy together as a clique of friends. hmmmm, and also monday ada org point middle finger kt saya :( sedih k, hahah fake la. beh harini, tidak perlu untuk awak stare kt saya k, hehehhheheheh saya tak suka la heheheheeh eeeee why i so cheeky k la bye! :PPPPP

i gave in too easily

2011-03-27T19:36:00.000+08:00

My weakness? I give in so easily. Which in the end, hurt me like hell.

hi today is another boring day i shall say. whole day rot at home and eaaaaaaaaaat :P hehehehehe i gained alot of weight k please, tsk! eh ya, my leg and hand muscles aching siaaaaaaaaaaa! cause of yesterday eh? the after-gym effect eh? hahahaha! my abs too, very achinggggggggg. wth, didn't knew i worked out too well, hahahha laugh out loud please :P bahhhhhhhhhhhh. ok homeworks supposed to be done today, but i haven't touched any, hahahahah! how lazy am i. hehehehhe. i'm doing my maths homework and karangan halfway later on :> hehehe ok bye!

how i wish i could be, moving on easily with life, no doubts. it sucks alot, being here all alone, thinking about you, whyyy oh whyyyy can't i stop doing all those unnecessary stuffffffff? :< stop dreaming atika, its not gonna come true! but still i'm hoping, for First April, bleargh. hahahahahhahaha k i is sungguh merepek k i tahu bye!

one sided

2011-03-27T02:02:00.001+08:00

cintaku bertepuk sebelah tangan, tapi aku balas senyum keindahan.

hai saya maseh menunggu kehadiranmu di dalam hidupku. k saya bermimpi, sumpah ia tidak akan terjadi. kenapa mengharap kalau tahu ia tidak akan terjadi? Atika Sari, berhenti bermimpi. :>

k my malay sucks big time. haahaha. but seriously, why hope so much when i know that things won't happen? why do i dream so much? why why why? tell me whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy its so difficult? :/ i feel so one-sided already. D': cry please.

you got me feeling crazy.

2011-03-26T20:00:00.003+08:00

You're not just my bestfriend, but you're also my lover.

hi, i just came back from the gym with Aslam, Hariz, Fiqkry, Shafiq & Alfian :> it was fuuuuuuuuun. but yes, its weird being the only girl, but hey, i got the hang of it :D well, gym again next week? i wanna build up abs, like seriously. hahah chey fake laaaa. i want to improve my running speed uh please, and yes, of course my leg muscles ;) heheheheh i is so strong, hahahha fake! prasan jubo uh aku ni, hehehhe :P so after gym, i went to ut point's kfc and had my lunch with Aslam and Hariz as the rest followed Shafiq to help his father carry some fish tanks to Shafiq's grandmum's house, which is like, near my house -.- tsk! hahahah so yes, i had fun walking around crapping with those people. thanks for the day (L)

hmmm, i think i've enjoyed this week eh? mayb, minus out all the shitty problems uh k. hehehehhe, had fun playing basketball with Shafiq, Alfian, Elly & Nazli. played alot of games with them. oh yes, i won Shafiq in basketball! :P hehehhe still, we owe each other eggtart :DDDDDDDDDD i'm still waiting for my eggtart ok Shafiq, hohoho :>

k so, another 6 more days eh? tsk! whatever uh k bye!

i wonder

2011-03-23T23:46:00.002+08:00

You may find it ridiculous, but I'm still not over you.

ah yes,i'm still not over you.tsk!its almost two months now since you left me.i've been feeling so useless these days,without you.that smile on my face,its just to show you that i can live without you k,my friends can make me laugh and smile like one idiot too k.but i always thought back,it used to be you,who will always be my reason to smile everyday.but now,not anymore.how sadistic can life be without you right by my side?i still got my Pancing♥ members, Manis♥, Amy, and alot others to depend on.well,i gotta be strong and move on.

k i have something to confess right now, i still love you ok, bye.

the world shall be mine

2011-03-21T00:30:00.000+08:00

My eyes reacted, my mind was attracted, my heart was affected, thousands were rejected, but you alone were selected.

hi hi hi! :> i went out yesterdaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.happy saturday with two idiots, Alfian & Shafiq. k la,not idiots la,they're a bunch of funny people,joker <3 it was fun eh having them around me,eventho i feel left out at times.hahahaha nevermind,i still had fun with them,thanks alot for the Happy Saturday eh you two ♥

so,its already midnight and i'm not asleep yet.i'm having school later but i don't care la,its just the start whuat,comfirm lame laaaaa.attire check and stupid stuff.i'm left with my physics hw which i don't know what to do cause i lost the paper,like serious -.- how clumsy can i get.tsk!k nvm,atleast i did the rest of my homework :>

woooooooooopwooooooooop!another eleven more days la weeewit.we could have been two years ya know.but its all gone,how?wasted sia,another two more months to go only and then we gave up,tskkkkkkkkkkkk!how sad eh.i want cry k please.ish!i wonder eh,why i'm so pathetic?sikit2 jek nk nanges,crybaby.tembak kang baru tahu,eeeeeeeek!but seriously,crying over this kind of things work out for cause i let out everything and yes,definitely its difficult to let go la.wow,i still cared when i shouldn't.what the hell k please.i cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy cause i still love us,you but oh well....... everything good just have to come to an end,right?

i'm just waiting for something better to come along.sadgirl for tonight >:'( k bye

dreamcatcher

2011-03-19T14:05:00.000+08:00

The girl you used to know? She left, just like you did.

oh heeeeeeeeeeeeeey, :> i'm currently waiting for alfian's msg and then i'll be out already.going out to scape,walk around town with alfian and shafiq.yez,only the three of us :( sad ehhhh.but nvm,still can have lots of fun with this two awesome people never ending jokes :> we only have one problem,cameraaaaaaaaaaaaa >:'( sad ehhhhhhhhhhhhhh.nk go out then no camera tskkkkkkkkkkk!hahahah take pictures can keep memories whuat,hehehehe :D

k i shall braaaaaaaaag and braaaaaaaaaaag and braaaaaaaag.oh my goooooooooooooood,i superbly love March♥ gonna have an awesome moments ah this month.ahhh just make it forever k can? HEHEEHEHHEHE

WAAAAAAAAAAAAH I'M MOVING ON WITH LIFE K.WHAT'S IN THE PAST,JUST LET IT BE IN THE PAST.THANKS FOR ALL THE MOTIVATIONAL WORDS,IT REALLY DO HELPED ME ALOT :> SO YES,SERIOUSLY WHAT'S LEFT BEHIND IN THE PAST,IT SHALL NOT BE REPEATED.I'M LEAVING ALL MY PAST AWAAAAAAAY,FAR FAR AWAY FROM ME K.NOW IN LIFE,ITS ALL HAPPINESS,I DON'T WANT ANYMORE DISAPPOINTMENTS.I'M SICK AND TIRED OF HAVING DISAPPOINTMENTS,ITS JUST SO HEARTBREAKING.BUT YET,I'LL STILL HOLD ON TO ALL MY MEMORIES ALRIGHT :> NO WORRIES,MEMORIES WILL BE FOREVER ETCHED IN MY HEART.

I FORGIVE,BUT I DON'T FORGET.

every steps we take, we grow.

2011-03-17T17:18:00.003+08:00

You have no fucking idea how it feels and how it hurts to not have you care anymore.

hi hi hi! CAMBODIA WAS AWESOME K PLEASE! I MISS KHMER HOMESTAY VERY MUCH! AND I MISS CAMBODIA TOO! I WISHED WE STAYED THERE LONGER. I MISS ALL THE FUN I HAD THERE,NO STRESS,NO PROBLEMS.ITS ALL JUST REAL FUN AND HAPPINESS AND PEACE (Y) AWESOME TRIP :> THANKS TO ALL THE TEACHERS THAT MADE THAT TRIP SUCH A SUCCESSFUL TRIP!AWESOME TRIP,AWESOME CLASS,AWESOME PLACE, ♥♥♥♥♥♥

soooooooooo,long time eh i didn't update.heheh!was busy with school,malaydance -.- after the cambodia trip :> but yes,still had fun.ate alot k.heheheh! :> food makes my world go round!oh yes,bestfriends♥ cute eh!hehehe been spending lots of my time with them.superb uh!let's go out togehter everyday,heheheheheh! :D i have the most adorable bubbly loving clans! ♥ hmmmmmmmmmmmmm,March have been such a great month for me, ♥

next month,April.k i'm scared i'm not strong.shitty k,why must all this happen.nevermind,something better will come along anyway,i hope :> but still,first april ahhhhhhhhhhhh!how?k atika i believe u can do it!get over it and be strong!atika,u must be strong.well,please be.u can't always just stucked in the past right?move on and forget the pain.okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay,stay happy atika!

i hope my self motivation helps.sighs. :'(

wasn't just deceiving

2011-03-07T23:20:00.002+08:00

One day, you will realize how much I was there for you when I'm gone.

hi and i love the song Chris Medina - What Are Words :>

hehehehhe k thanks sbb nk pinjamkan jersey,HEHHEHEHE :> okok today was uhrm,quite a normal day i supposed?exceptions for some things,after soccer match,outside minimart with Kak Atyqa,Amir,Abdullah & Ellis.hahahahaha funny hilarious moments.i love them all k bye! :D

TWO MORE DAYS TO CAMBODIA!

what are words

2011-03-07T00:12:00.001+08:00

Truth is, you knew what you had, you just never thought you’d lose it.

hi i went out with ibu today.yes,i've bought my skyblue vans size six cause size five don't have.it still fits me though.we shopped for alot of shampoos and other stuffffffffff :> well i had a great day with ibu,thanks alot k ibu. <3

believe it or not,i've start packing.oh yes,i need another jersey la pretty pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.haiya,kk nnt tmr i carik org.k nk tido bye!

welcome to my silly life

2011-03-05T23:54:00.000+08:00

Sometimes a heart cannot afford to be ''just friends''.

hi yesterday arep blanje me chicken mcgrill at macd,thanks alot.hahaha kk and i forget what else happened yesterday but then,it all seemed to be the day i wanted it to be,laughters, :>

today was cambodia trip briefing,i swear i felt like sleepingggggggggggg -.- so i decided to bring haq to canteen and watched the soccer boys played soccer for the nike cup.well,they didn't get to qualify,but for sure,i know they had done their best :> and tk perlu k please when i passed by and they were all staring at me wondering 'who's child is this? O.O' HAHAHAHAHAH u know that look :/

k so after briefing waited for Rean & Aslam andd off for dinner at lot oneeeeeeeee,food culture.homed,get changed and then proceed to jalan besar stadium.i accompanied alfian aslam and rean cause they're doing their job,ballboy and stretcher.i also did watched the match.it was nfa and what i don't know.hahahha it was a tough game sia seriously.so after that we went back to lot one and had dinner together :D i swear it was hilarious going out with them,plus aslam.aslam's stupid craps really made my day.hahahahah laughed like shit k please.thanks alot ah people ♥

k tmr going to lot one to shop for my vans skyblue and shampoo and everything i need for the cambodia trip :> i'll be with ibu,awesome k.and i'm searching for another jersey to be worn at cambodia,tsk!kkk i know who alr,hehehehe :> K BYE GOODNIGHT PEOPLE! XOXO, ♥

awesome march

2011-03-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

Relationships don't always last, but you have to move on and let the past be the past.

hi and i love March,its super awesome please :> yesterday was fun,and seriously,stomach cracking day.i laughed alot with Fitri,Ellis,Shafiq,Shah,Alfian,Fiqkry & Rean.they always made my day.HAHAHAHAHAHA I LOVE FIRST MARCH ALOT K!

March have been awesome so far,so much laughters and happiness along the way.yes,i feel my sense of belonging to my friends :D they're awesome bunch of people.awesome funny clans i have.i'm so looking forward to Cambodia.

oh by the way,it've been a month since i'm a single ladyyyyyyyyyyyyy, :> WOW K PLEASE.hahahaha i don't need that kind of love,all i need now is love from my bestfriends & family.ahhhh how i love them and him.HAHAHAHHAHA K BYEBYE!

a better day

2011-03-01T00:14:00.000+08:00

each day i love you more, today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow.

hi my common test results were awesomez.only failed maths :>

ok i'm not happy,i'm sad.its First March today,argh.it could have been our 23rd,but its all gone in a blink of an eye.i'm crying,i'm dying.nobody knows.

it have never been better.

2011-02-27T19:09:00.000+08:00

Why is it so hard to accept that "all is over" and there's no us anymore?

so i had an awesomez Saturday with awesomez people.went town to search for Shafiq,Rean & Alfian's vans shoes :> we went from Far East Plaza to Ion, to Heeren, to Wheelock, to Wisma, to Cineleisure.last last,they bought their shoes all at Far East which means we need to walk back to Far East.hahaha awesome much? :P me and Fitri just followed.its tiring actually going shopping with boys,they were so fickle minded sehy,like seriously.hahaha but ok la,first time i went shopping with boys.i meant,i accompanied them :> see i awesome kan,lulz. so after that,Fitri,Shafiq & Rean went home.me and Alfian met Ashiqin Kak Atyqa Taufiq Izzat & Nadiah.we walked around town and went MBS,took pictures and homed.i reached home at 12.20am :D k my Saturdays were awesomezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzly spent, <3

ahhhhhh,three weeks 5 days ehhhhhhhhhh >:'( shitty much.i cried every night hoping you'd return back.but no, *sighs* k whatever la.i just live my life to the fullest la.haish.

2011-02-25T18:01:00.002+08:00

Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever i start feeling sad cause i miss you, i remind myself how luck i am to have someone so special to miss.

over again

2011-02-24T22:57:00.000+08:00

I want to be yours forever. I want you to be mine forever.
(and that's impossible.)

oh hi,i think i've missed something great that had happened eh?ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,i miss you so :'( well oh well,it've been three weeks a day of single babyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!~ seriously,so awesomez.but still,i need you la can?hohohohoho :> i wonder,how this feeling for you will fade eventhough i know its difficulttttttttttttttttttt,bleah. :P i suck at love,seriously. :|

well,let's look up on the brighter side.i'm going Cambodia in THIRTEEN MORE DAYS BABYYYYYYYYYYY!i really can't wait :DDDD excited like one fatfatfat happy cat sehyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :> i really can't wait to see Cambodia pretty please,hehehehehe.okok so yes,looking forward to Cambodia.

hmmm,oh its gonna be first march real soon :'( can i cry please :'( ha ha ha ha ha i can't believe that i actually cried for three weeks straight for ah whatever.waaaaaaaaaaaaah,you really meant alot huh.k so how? *sighs*

Somewhere between laughing for no reason, making fun of each other and calling each other names, I fell for you.

2011-02-20T21:04:00.000+08:00

all over again,for you

2011-02-20T15:51:00.001+08:00

i miss being this girl up here,smiling endlessly,widely to herself every single day and is happy of the life that she's living in.she lived her life to the fullest and knows that when everything falls apart,something better will fall together.i miss being this girl who used to be so strong to every problem she faced.now i think all that is gone,i'm weak.well,all i have to say is that,i used to be this lucky beautiful girl.

Siti Nor Ellis;

she's fuckin' perfect to me.don't ever feel like as if you've been pushed away.hey,i'm always here for you,you know that :> we are both facing difficult moments in life at this point.i've just lost a person whom i deeply love with all my heart.well,i don't think its worth loving someone like that.he doesn't care.at least i know that there's someone better who love me more than he does,and that's you.we are both losing the person we loved,yes,friends i meant.but its all part of life.people change.its up to them to be who they want to be.you just need to hold on to me k,i'm always here for you,unlike them,who left you.but i know i will,insyaallah :> you're more like a sister than a bestfriend to me, ♥ i love you so very much,and yes remember,its not worth crying for someone who doesn't even give a shit about you.

Kak Atyqa;

my awesomez sister, ♥ we've known for more than three years now, :> i really appreciate everything you've done for me.we've been through thicks and thins together.we both share the most amazing memories together.that will never be forgotten.she understand me the best and give me the best advices that i can ever get, :D she's the best and will always be.stay cute and chubby eh awesome one!XOXO for you k please ♥♥ *muahmuah*

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and finally to you,thanks for the long funny shitty stupid cute relationship i had with ya.it was the best moment of my life,having you in my life.i felt so secured,knowing that you will always be mine,for like forever.but then,forever doesn't exist.but still,i'm sure that someday we'll be back together again, ♥ i really hoped for a moment like that back again.why?easy,its cause i still love you and yes,i can't seem to be doing well without you.i hope you realised that,but actually you don't.i feel so dumb,hoping for you,waiting for you,when i know that i can't actually be with you anymore and that its impossible.nothing will ever happen between you and i.everything is over.yes i know,you're over me,over us.but me,i'm still in my own dreams,not getting over you,over us.how am i gonna live like this?when are you gonna be out of my mind?when am i gonna be ok without you?when am i gonna wake up from my impossible dream?when am i gonna stop hoping and waiting?how can i move on?why must everything be so hard for me?why why why?i wasted my tears every night,thinking of second february.yes,the day it was officially over.just really,seriously,fuvk everything.

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

2011-02-20T14:47:00.000+08:00

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Ohh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find

Pink - Fuckin' Perfect

2011-02-20T14:45:00.000+08:00

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss "no way it's all good"
It didn't slow me down
Mistaken
Always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I'm still around...

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
f**ckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You're f**ckin' perfect to me

You're so mean
When you talk
About yourself
You are wrong
Change the voices
In your head
Make them like you
Instead
So complicated
Look how big you'll make it
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It's enough
I've done all i can think of
Chased down all my demons
see you do the same

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
f**ckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You're f**ckin' perfect to me

The world stares while i swallow the fear
The only thing i should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and we try, try, try
But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cuz they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?

Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,
Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less then, f**ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing you're f**ckin' perfect, to me
You're perfect
You're perfect
Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you're nothing you're f**cking perfect to me

boredom

2011-02-19T21:28:00.002+08:00

Relationship is meant for 2. 2 people to make it work & love each other. NOT for 1 person to give everything & end up hurt.

k i'm just posting silly facts and yes,facts about me :> ohkkkkkkkkk today was awesomez i must say.i went table tennis with Rean,Shafiq & Alfian, :D

k i'm bored right now.k nk tgk crite Love on sensasi k bye!

uh?

2011-02-19T21:26:00.000+08:00

45 things a girl wants for but wont ask for.

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her. 24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).

34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love ..

secret #3:

2011-02-19T21:11:00.001+08:00

Sometimes when I get upset, something inside of me shuts down. I feel like I should be crying or screaming or something but I don't because I'm turned off. I go silent and don't talk very much, just looking at people. Thinking so much that I could drive myself crazy. It's the kind of upset that confuses me and makes me want to curl up and sleep it off. I stay fixed like this until the hurt runs away. Sometimes it feels like it's never going to go.

secret #2:

2011-02-19T21:08:00.000+08:00

I find it adorable when someone remembers the littlest details about you. It’s cute when that person takes the time and effort to surprise you with the things you don’t remember telling them about. It’s like they’ve read your mind. The kind of person that pays attention to what you say just so they can use it to their advantage in order to put a smile on your face. I love those thoughtful people who go out of their ways just so they can make you happy.

secret #1:

2011-02-19T20:58:00.001+08:00

I can't believe I used to be head over heels for you. I could never stop staring at you... You and your attractiveness. The sound of your name easily cracked a smile on my face. Now, I really hate the fact that I can't even look at you. I can't even stand you. I secretly smile a bit when I hear your name, then quickly frown because I remember all the shit we've been through, all the shit you put me through.